Well, Here's an unexpected Xanga update! It's seriously been a love/hate relationship with this thing. I'll never update, but I'll enjoy reading everyone else's blogs. And by everyone else, I mean Katie Coleman and sometimes Kat. Haha.
So let's see. A lot has changed. Of course.
I was in a relationship for a few months this summer. I was really happy with it. But she went to school in Boston a month ago. Last week, she called me and told me that she couldn't do long distance anymore. It was unexpected at the time, but now I understand it completely. It was a complete lack of communication on her end. I guess she couldn't find the time to talk to me. But, I digress.
That band I've been playing in with Andrew and Matt has evolved INCREDIBLY. We are now called Frankly, My Dear and have released a 6 song E.P titled "Head To The Sky". It's the most prized possession in my life right now. That c.d is our words, our emotions and our stories told in a 35 minute session. We're playing more and more shows and it's coming along astoundingly. We are heading down to Statesboro on Friday to play a Homeless Awareness Benefit Show with The Rise of Science. Us playing is pretty awesome, especially since we have a song about being homeless and dealing with drugs and family troubles. It should be a lot of fun!
I am in the middle of my promotion at Blockbuster. Finally! I'll be a shift lead in a few days, which has been long overdue. I'm just glad I'll be receiving that responsibility soon. Blockbuster is going great, otherwise. Still in love with movies. I've been going to movie screenings like MAD. I honestly have screenings every week. I had 3 this past week, and I couldn't go to any of them. Terribly sad.
So, here's why I decided to update this thing: I'm really upset at a lot of things and it's more than annoying. People change. I get that. But it's horrible as to how people pretend shit never happened. How long has drinking been the only way to have fun? it's a horrible outlook on life. When I'm 21, Yeah, I'll drink. But until then, why the fuck does it matter? Drinking publicly to get drunk is horrible. I drink (some) alcohol to relax. I don't run in a room and say "Alright: This, this, this, this, this and this are mine!!"
Look, if you drink to get drunk, more power to you. I hope you have a great time. But expecting me to drink because everyone else is? That's fucking disrespectful as shit. Fuck you.
Frequence has gone on way too long. I love pop-punk, I really do. But I just can't play it anymore. It's too repetitive for me. I don't have room to expand my drumming. Frankly, My Dear has done so much for itself in under the course of a year. Frequence hasn't done that much in over 3 years. It's a pretty obvious difference. I love both Chase and Killian, but it's ending. And it's ending soon.
I find myself questioning my friends. A lot. It's unhealthy. But there's one friend I never question. And I love her for it. I don't even know if she knows how much she means to me. But she's everything I need in a friend right now. She never goes against her word, she doesn't contradict herself and she's incredibly easy to talk to. I love her to death and I intend on having her near me for a long, long time.
That's enough for me tonight. I'll probably be updating this a lot more. But, we'll see.

Lyric for the day:
She was a termite eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul who needed a home.
I was filling a void with you.
And I can't, can't wait,
Til you see see see,
What death and disgust have done to me.
And I spent three years wishing for two things.
That one day you'd break,
And I'd get to see.
Oh, the choices you've made can drive you insane.
I wish we'd never met.
As angry as I sound,
That's just a way to cover up the way I feel.
I've been that way for years and years.
A slave to broken hearts and sex appeal.

Bayside-They're NOT Horses, They're Unicorns.

Today was a good day! I worked for about 5 hours, went to Dave & Busters with My Older Bro Matt, then the thrift store (in which we caused some major hilarity), and then I spent the rest of the night hanging out with an old friend, Jess. It's really nice to catch up with people who mean a good bit!
Now I'm sitting in my Entertainment Roow watching a buzzed Matt laugh at Hot Rod (Which i will admit is a hilarious movie).
I've seen two movies this week, and both are worth reviewing. And it'll be more special seeing that they are coming out on the same day. So here we go:
Four Christmases: A Vince Vaughn/Reese Witherspoon rom-com where the two want to continue the tradition of avoiding their families for the holidays, but end up spending an entire day in four different households. This movie was pretty predictable, but had it's moments where it went off-course and still remained pretty funny. I wouldn't call it hilarious, but I laughed a good bit. Enough to make the movie worthwhile. Vaughn has the usual amount of ridiculously long punchlines and absurd facial expressions, so a Vaughn fan will not be dissappointed. Oh and Reese Witherspoon has one of the most gorgeous smiles in the world. Soo I'm in! See it with a loved one during the holidays!
Australia: Good God, I loved this movie. Action, drama, romance, humor, and the scenery was astounding! This plot takes place where the English Lady Ashley (Nicole Kidman) travels to Australia to see her husband at work and is transported to his ranch by the native ranger Drover (Hugh Jackman). Once the plot thickens, Drover partners with Lady Ashley to help save her loved one's ranch. One of the best parts of this movie (to me), was how historically accurate it was. Keep in mind that this movie took place in 1939, 2 years before Japan backed away from America's harbors. So later on in the movie, they include Japan's bombing of Northern Australia and the tensions between countries. Fantastic, fantastic, fantastic! An absolute must-see! A little longer than I like for movies, but absolutely one of the best movies of 2008.

I am looking forward to next week. For more than one reason...but one of the reasons really help: haha
Lyric of the day:
When you're all alone with a melody
Do you close your eyes and think of me
Will you still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four
~Ryan

So i had plans with that girl I like this past saturday. We were going to go on a picnic in the park, until she called and said she was too tired and had alot of homework. Usually in that situation, I'd be incredibly pissed off that she was too tired to go on a freaking picnic I had planned. But she was near tears when she called and was really worried. So we moved the plans to saturday morning. I'm really getting anxious. Because I think she feels the same, but I'm not sure. Also, the last time I was on a picnic was ages ago. *sigh* I really hope we get to go on a picnic.
So today I had a Brodown with Andrew, Chase and Timmi. We went to Startime. As ridiculous as that place is, I always seem to generate some hilarious times there. Tonight was no exception. Haunted theaters, lost golf balls, willy-wonka impressions and Back Alley Cops. Defintely a great way to start the week.
I'm working tomorrow at 10 A.M, but I want to vote first. Still kind of tossed up with that situation. That's another story though.
I AM however meeting up an old friend tomorrow night. To say the least, I'm stoked!
~Ryan